Insert song, “This Is Me”. Song by Demi Lovato and Joe Jonas from “Camp Rock”
OK, today is the day. A few months ago Drew and I decided to start a podcast. And while that will be so super fun to capture audio of our banter, I think that I still need an outlet to write down my feelings. A few years ago before I even had my first son, I sat Drew down and talked to him about me starting a blog and/or writing a book. I was probably 25 years old and felt like I had enough life experience to start on a that adventure. I asked Drew what he thought about it because some things from my past are difficult for me to write about and for others to hear, especially for the person in this life that loves you most. Fast forward to another six or seven years and here I am again, feeling that “pull”. For years and years, I have vented my feelings on Instagram posts. Writing about my feelings as a wife, mother, loss mom, and everything in between, has given me more peace than I could ever describe. But even with that contentment that I feel, I think that I could do so much more. I am scared because I have this burning feeling that this is going to change my life. I hope and pray it changes for the better, but I also know that by diving deep into things that I’ve been through could really affect people around me. But I am not going to dull my sparkle for other peoples comfort. I am more than ready to speak my truth, to tell my stories, to honor my beautiful late daughter, and to share with the world how happy I am to finally be me. Insert song, “This Is Me”. Song by Demi Lovato and Joe Jonas 😜
On our podcast, and in this blog, I am so excited to show you guys the real me. The truth is that I am a mess, a big, fat, wonderful, beautiful, mess… I am excited to share with you how I fill my cup first in order to be able to fill up everybody’s cup around me. I am excited to show you that manifesting your hopes and dreams works. I am excited to show you that you can have it all if you have the right mindset. I am excited to show you that even when you have the right mindset you can still be pissed at the shitty hand that you have been dealt. I am 1000% OK with feeling happy and sad at the same time. Those two emotions, I live in every day of my life. I always remind myself that for every low that I feel, I feel just as high (not THAT kind of high, am I right?) I am excited to show you how I have gotten to this place while being a complete shit show. I hope and pray that I can help you get there too.
A few fun facts about me, I am a Gemini. I know nothing about any other sign, but I know that I am a Gemini. I am an introvert and extrovert at the exact same time. I am a spontaneous, control freak. I am a shopaholic minimalist. I want to live in a big city where I can easily find entertainment, while also wanting to live on a homestead “out yonder”, away from the world.
Thank you for being here. Thank you for reading this. Thank you for supporting my family. Please comment below with what topics you want me to talk about on the blog AND/OR podcast!
-Markie
